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yay !!!

at last i can say … my last academic exam is over !!!!!!!! i have finished my DSS paper a few days ago …. Tonnes of burden felt like feather right after i handed in my paper to the invigilator ! .. hahhah .. was sooo happy …

But happiness is short .. life is full of dateline … i have to hand in my extended projec proposal on the 17 june … 13 of June is my birthday .. yay .. but i have to finish writing up my proposal b4 that !!! so i can enjoy myself …

Although my birthday is coming .. but to think about my buddies are leaving UK soon .. it is such a turn off .. sighz .. i havent have a good birthday party since i came to UK … Girlfriend is in HK somemore .. sigh .. lonely and sad .. hhahhah ..

I am not complaining … i have to face the fact .. hhahha … i should be getting used to it already by now ….

at last i can move out of this blardy jail room on the 3 june … i am moving to Watford .. a good friend’s place .. but the room is still under renovation .. so i havent got a proper room now yet .. dun even have a bed … hhahhah ….. =)

i hope i can have a good time staying with them … lets hope so ..

alright .. gotta stop here .. good bye my stupid blog …

haha .. how sad .. i dono how can i revise my Distibuted System Security module becoz the scope of this subject is too large and it is impossible to finish it all …

*sob*   *sob*   

all i remember are DES algorithm .. Pulic key Cryptography .. Message authentication code .. Four Key distribution methods .. .. i havent even started my FINITE FIELDS revision on polynomial arithmetics …. OMG … what the hell … What is Elliptic Curve crytogrpahy … sighh ……….. many sighzz ……

i need a miracle at this point … i must EAT DSS >> SLeEp DSS … SHIT DSS … DIE DSS …  what have i got myself into ? wanted an easy module for my master degree .. but i have chosen the hardest module path … F**k .. STUPID JASON …

life before exams are like living in hell .. life before exams with lotsa coursework is asking me to go hell’s basement .. luckily i have finish one of my coursework today .. having sitting in the LRC at late night for 2 weeks makes me feel like living in LRC ..

ermm .. what to say ler .. i am sitting here in LRC again .. everybody surrounding me seems so hardworking … it makes me feeling like a lazy bastard .. how can they concentrate ? i just couldnt concentrate now … am i too tired ? exhausted ? may b mentally ..

i always tell myself .. no worries .. no worries .. life is beautiful .. hhahha .. i am just lying this shit to myself over and over again .. i dun wan to live this kind of life again !!!! mentally torturing .. sigh sigh sigh …

right ..  after bullshitting, i need to live my boring life again .. see ya ..

i dono why .. i had this song kept singing in my head by michael buble’s song. The song name is Home .. hahha .. i might b home sick .. hahha .. after 2 years being away … hahha .. it is a bit too late for home sickness .. hahha … but i really like the song .. it is about being alone out there .. and wanna go home …

goto http://www.michaelbuble.com .. u can hear it in that page =)

oh yeah …. kien haw > thanx for visiting me in my blog .. hhahha … i will be coming home in july ! =)

as exams are coming nearer and nearer .. i feels like i am suffocating  .. drowning into the deep sea … i have tried me best to study whenever i can .. i hope i can swim out of this shit sea .. bluarghh …

I woke up 8.15 am in the morning .. awoken by the sound of rain hitting on the window .. It will b another busy monday … i almost forgot to hand in my project outline .. luckily i bum into another coursemate while walking to my morning class .. after my class .. i rushed to complete my submission form and handed it in around 2 pm … Pheew ~~ i had another class from 4-6 … bz bz bz … after class … i was already starving …. i went home and cook myself 2 noodles and some wantan to fill up my stomache .. hahaha .. satisfying … yum yum .. + a cup of hot citrus tea .. i am not sure what to do now .. but i might go to asda for some groceries and do some revision in LRC at night =) GANBATE !! dun give up =) ciaoz

It is so fucking bored today .. skipped 2 classes … and wasted a day without revising .. what am i doing ?

sitting in the room .. facing 4 empty walls as usual .. better go to bed earlier tonight .. oh ya .. i drank a litre of vitasoy … funny me ..

it is another boring day 2molo … i hope something special could happen to me at this time of the year to cheer myself up .. hahhah … cisin .. i have no where to release stress .. so i guess i will write more shits into this blog nowadays ..

People who are reading my blog must b very bored 2 .. Are u bored ? send me a message … lets get bored together .. alright , i guess i will read a few page of Dan Borwn’s Deception Point and go to bed now …

good night to meself who has no life .. sayonara … peace out ~~

hmm .. day after day … one month has passed .. today is the first day of uni after easter holiday .. sitting here in the LRC at this time reminds me of my first year in this uni with my mates 2 years ago ..

y am i suddenly so sentimental ? hahha .. i missed all of u …. and i am left alone here … =( .. nevermind la ..

exams are coming soon .. luckily i need to do 2 papers only .. but the bad news is if i fail any of the papers i wont b able to get achieve my master degree … sigh ..

READ READ READ READ …. but nothing is going into my head … wat to do ?? .. i still need to read … sigh .. no mood ar … i go back to my studies la …

As usual … woke up around noon .. sat up … blink blink .. dont know what to do next .. suddenly , i dont know where am i and what am i doing and what to do next .. i always have this weird kind of feeling ..

Later after noon, i had a cup of coffee and a few krispy kreme for lunch .. then my friend told me exam is starting on the 23rd of may … shitozz .. i was awoken from my sweet dream since holiday .. i think i gonna catch up with hell lotsa things .. NO MORE gunbound and movies … sighz …

although i felt lost for quite a while since .. but at least i know what to do next … it might not b an interesting things to do … but thats life ..

I am going out for a hair cut later … coz i look like a lion now .. hahha .. hair flying out from every possible angle from my head … looks like a lion really .. hhahha ..

UNI is starting in 3 days time .. i have to pack and go back to my bloody uni life again .. hmm .. sometimes i feel .. being in UK is not nice at all .. but with the friends i have got here, it turns my sucky life from bad to normal again .. haha ..

o1oo1o1oo1o1oo1 –> this is what i have to learn everyday in uni .. things related to stupid computers .. why ?! am i really going to use it for my job later ? i wonder .. but at least i know something … what if i dont even know that ? i dont want to know what will happen .. hhaha ..

Project .. due dates .. exams … why all of us have to meet a certain requirement not only in school .. but in life ? why people have to live up to others expectation ? human is strange ..  we are a bunch of strange species .. haha ..

ok la… enough of bullshit for today .. that is all what i want to say today .. sayonara …

tsumanarai ~~~~~

Today i was woken up by my mad sis coz i promised her to accompany her to london to do some stuff in the Malaysia High Comm. in London … After we did what we have to do in the embassy, we went to oxford street for a gila babi shopping spree .. we didnt buy anything but walked hell lot of places .. It was raining and wet … fucking cold ~~~ but the best part comes later … we explored quite a few places and my mad sis brought me to a sushi shop "itsu" for lunch … wahhhh .. the sushi was soooo nice .. yummy !! syok … but a bit expensive … =) hahhha .. tq sis … hahha .. after lunch we continue to walk around till late night …. we even went to harrods for ice cream … hahha .. how porsh !! hehe … wat an adventurous day … hahhaha ..