Expectation
today i woke up as usual and thought for a long while bout where am i heading towards .. my goals and all .. my whole life is about living up to ppl’s expectation … ppl who love me , always put high hopes on me … what if i cant achieve all that ? i dun wan to let them down , and keep pushing myself to the limits .. i dono how long can i live a life like that …….
what difference does it make if i do it here or there ? why cant i have plans set out for me like my friends .. i guess nothing is fair in life .. i have to go through everything by myself .. venture into the darkness alone … pull myself out of trouble everytime .. who can i rely on .. you ? can i ? who r you ?
Recently .. i have come across a phrase which say .. "first u set a goal, then u follow through it no matter what happens .. because that is what u want at first .. " This is easier said than done .. i am already into my plans, but i am starting to wonder if i am on the right track because nobody can tell me if i am right or wrong .. should i run straight to it ? or pull back and waste all the effort i have put in earlier ? i am feeling pretty frustrated now actually …….
i really wish someone could help me to sort this out .. coz i am really tired ……
